I have always hungered to find my tribe.  You would think that after 67 years of living I would be there.  I am really close..  I know my tribe is within the Goddess community.  At least I have identified that!

I had this realization the other day.  I have always been a nomad.  After two or three years - sometimes even sooner - I pick up and move.  No wonder I haven't a tribe!  Surely to goodness it takes a while to really build and identify with your tribe and I frankly, just don't give myself a chance!  My Sisters online are clearly my tribe but because we are far dfistant from each other - it is not always possible to fully share in the tribal experience.

I am pretty sure that my intention to dive into the community upon returning here was motivated by my desire for tribal connections and so I am on the right track!

I have always been a firm believer that if I want something from the community - and I can't find it - then I will build it!  To be honest I am not sure I have the energy to do that any more - so I am exploring what is built and seeing where I can offer myself because I know that is part of "belonging" and I love the work.  There are good women here and I know I can do this.  I need a sense of belonging - I need a tribe.

I am really not good at this blogging thing.  Good grief.  The last time I wrote anything I was just beginning the move back to Texas.  I am here - getting here was a nightmare - I was sick - sicker that I have been in many years and through it all - I packed and hauled and cleaned.  It's a wonder I did not drop.  On the day we loaded the truclk I was in full blown asthma attack and  seriously considered going to an emergency room but just trying to figure out which one was more than I could do so I just kept cleaning!

I coughed and wheezed all the way to Texas and for 2 more weeks after arrival.  I had a crisis one night (spent most of the night in the bathroom with the hot shower running!) and once I got through that I began to mend.

I ended up in a two bedroom apartment of my own and had to get rid of half of what I hauled here from Georgia because I just couldn't fit it in!  I am still loaded with every nook and cranny filled to capacity.  I am learning the concept of a really organized home and keeping it that way because there is no room to make any messes or have clutter!

I came back to Austin with a firm resolve to really participate in the Goddess community.  When I was here before it was very sporadic - I was mostly a hermit.  But I must get out and be a part of this world - and not always be online.  It's working.  I am feeling good about returning and feel I can do this!  I am re-establilshing friendships and making new ones as well.  It is good!

Absolutely no leads on a job however.  I am considering my own business here at home http://austinbizhelp.com .  This will be working with small businesses as a virtual assistant - bookkeeper - whatever they need!  If I can make it happen I will have greater flexibility.

So this is a catch up for any who are following this.
Blessings
Deanne

I have been packing up getting ready to move to Texas and moving in with my daughter until I can get work, etc.  In this process I had to find foster homes for my dog and cat because I could not take them to her apartment.  I was waiting for a rental application to arrive in the mail (required to stay at her place longer than 2 weeks) but it hadn't come yet so I decided to go to their website and see if they had one online.  While there I saw that they had a sweet little 2 bedroom apartment that I can afford - if they will take me with no job!  Income isn't the issue for I have unemployment and my Social Security.

Well, low and behold - they accepted me and I am now the proud tenant of my very own two bedroom digs!  So now I have to reorganize a bit because all this time my packing has been keeping in mind what goes with me and what will go to storage for who knows how long!  Shouldn't be a problem as they will be my "quick" boxes - things I need right away.

I have arranged all my disconnects here and connects at the other end.  Today the dog gets her rabies vaccine and all that is left is some cleaning here.  Wow!!

We are loading the truck on Friday and will be off for Texas on Saturday with an anticipated arrival Sunday afternoon.  It is good to be busy with all these details of looking forward.  Leaving here will be very hard.  I have loved this cabin but even more loved my friendship with Judith and Joseph.  It is hard to leave a really good friend.  They are hard to come by.

I found a bag of bird seed as i was packing up.  So I took it out to the deck and poured it out along the railing for the birds.  What follows are some of the pictures I took as I sat here at my computer watching them.  They are cardinals and what Judith calls confusing fall warblers.  This one I haven't looked up yet!  The pictures are really fuzzy!



Note the reddish brown sides and the white breast



Note the reddish brown sides and the white breast




Daddy Cardinal



Mama Cardinal



Here she is again




Confusing Fall Warbler

Locust Trees in Bloom



Beauty Rises from the Earth



Roses

The Herb Garden



Rabbit Creek



Jananese Maple Trees



Beautiful Lilac





Hawthorn



Dogwood Tree



Dogwood Blossoms



Crab Apple Tree



Crab Apple Blossoms



Color in the Woods

How odd that the last time I wrote anything here the subject line was knee deep in boxes.  Here I sit once more - knee deep in boxes.  Yes, I am packed and ready for the Penske truck on Friday and off I go - back to Texas.  I have left Texas - what four times now?  Once to go to Oklahoma - that only lasted 6 weeks!  Then I left to go to Tampa and I made it 4 months.  Then falling in love, I left for California.  I made it three years and once more I returned to Texas.  Georgia kept me 16 months and seems to have decided I belong to Texas - so I am headed home.

I would like to keep some memories here in the way of pictures from last Spring.  I was so looking forward to seeing all of this again in a few short months.  The thought of Springs always helps me get through winter.  The Spring I spent in this log house will never be forgotten.



The Yard




Wisteria



White Thrift



Water Iris



Saucer Magnolia





Looking down across rock garden to cabin



Rabbit Creek





Sun on the garden




Rhododendron



Rabbit Creek



Antique Rose - Multi-colored



More Water Iris

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How could anyone ever telll you
You were anything less than beautiful?

How could anyone ever tell you
You were less than whole?

How could anyone fail to notice
That your loving is a miracle?

How deeply you're connected to my soul!

Written by Libby Roderick

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     A song for Imbolc

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   Unofficial theme song of the Isle of Man - home of my heart!